I'm always conscious of what I'm wearing and how others are looking at me. I can't stand going to bars because I always feel like everyone is looking at me in a bad way... or worse, not looking at me at all. It's kind of sick... I've never been this kind of person. Ever, ever, ever. I've always felt confident, and I've never really found it hard to communicate with the opposite sex. Now, my first thought when approaching a guy on a night out is, "He's probably going to think, 'Oh fuck. I'm stuck talking to the ugly friend.'" These negative feelings... they happen mostly when I am out with Lindsey and Sara-- to the point where I often walk home alone, almost in tears.
I know it's ridiculously dumb, but for some reason, I can't shake it.
I think I need to switch up something about my lifestyle. Not sure where to start, but I really don't want this to ruin my experience here.