What's inspiring me these days? There's a lot. Now that I am back state-side, I am being walloped on the head with the approaching reality of my return to Detroit this fall. Expectations for me and my work are high, and as for right now, I am really feeling the pressure to produce work with some sort of new insight.
Instead of feeling the rush of motivation, I feel overwhelmed. What is my style? At what point do I feel confident that I'm doing something that works and not just re-using the same old tricks? Where do my talents actually lie in the design world? Should I be focusing in or reaching out?
I look at the AIGA 365, and I think I need to be trying to vary my projects. I look at Jean Jullien, and I want to focus in and discover a style that suits me-- and then see how far I can run with it. And then I look at the work of my peers, and I wonder if I'm measuring up.
I know all of these views are useless, and all I need to do is to make make make. And to do that, you have to dive in... fearlessly. But I am afraid. Definitely very, very afraid. There was something in Edinburgh that made me feel alive-- and now I'm starting to realize that maybe it was that I had freedom from this. Freedom from creative bondage-- bondage to my work, to deadlines, to expectation.
That's life, eh?
I'm just hoping I can find some sort positive undercurrent within myself to guide me through these projects. I hope I strike gold.
In the meantime, I'm just going to have to turn up my music and try, try again.